well lately i have been realy down and looseing things i wish i could keep forever and i lost my verginity about a year ago and fell completely in love with this guy named bill it was great but he showed me hate and death is how it feels and how to regret even being born. till this year i met a guy named ryan he lives 2 hours away but is a sweetie i wish i could be with him more,he makes me want to wake up when i feel i cant and makes me feel like things will get betteer..... but through out all this my 2 best friends have been there for me sasha and quincy (god) i owe them both alot and love them very much. its just the thing right now is i am looking at sex for happyness and to feel good but i am afraid of it getting worse any words of advis please talk to me...... i am a recoverd cutter/carvor on my leggs and got through the worst times so i also have advise that may help someone out there......
lovealways amber
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Ok firstly,you remind me of myself.The only boy I have ever fallen for is named Ryan.Just like the guy you like!& secondly I'm glad you are a recovered cutter,cause so am I.& with the sex thing,I think everyone kind of goes through phases like that.With wanting it to make you happy in a way,but I think eventually if you do it too much you will get sick of it?JUST LIKE I DID.And you know you should probably have sex when you are def sure you love someone.like REALLY love them.Cause sex these days has loss so much meaning,no one ever wants to call it 'making love' anymore.So it's loss the meaning of how special it really is to share with someone.I plan to wait till marriage before I EVER have sex again.I probably sound heaps lame in this comment lol but in the end it's up to you what you do with your life.
just know that there are other things in life that can bring you happiness besides sex..
ya thanks and i know its just like i loved like really loved and still do with the guy i lost itwith and now i dont want tolove agin thats why i am so scared of ryan..... but ya so how r u
yeah fair enough if you really loved the guy,just so long as there was no pressure to have sex.and i know the feeling of being scared to love again,in fact I haven't let myself really fall for a guy in 3 years.but i think time heals everything eventually.
and btw i'm am doing great
LOL YA i did love the guy but he is an ass so gr but ya thats great were xo u live
your heart will tell you when the right time and the right man comes along. My heart goes out to ya, so hang in there... luv your self happi
Vic
thanks and same to so tell me about ur self
I'm in rehab right now for self mutilation and substance abuse. I still cut but only on my wrists. I didn't want to hurt my sexy legs. lol. About the sex. . . well it's great and makes you feel great if you have a good guy. (no one night stands). I had a great guy. He was loving and so beautiful, kind even infront of his friends. He loved me. but he soon took a walk down a very bad trail and I tagged along. Drugs...sex...great sex... and violence. He never hurt me but the people we were hanging around were very bad people. I soon got hooked on drugs. Ended up pregnant. Lost the baby (miscarriage). and got put into rehab. Even through all of that Mike (the guy) stayed with me. He just moved away two months ago to get himself help. I hope you find the right guy. One who will love you and never let you down. You know the knight in shining armor. You will find him. Don't give up and by the way sex is just that sex so remember the next time to make sure he can honestly say he loves you first. Good luck on life, love,lust. feel free to tell me anything. I'm good at giving advice.
~truefeelings15~
Leigh.